jetson wrote:
No one can help you, accept yourself. Accept Christ and the Holy Spirit will come, into your heart. You'll know you are saved, because your heart and life will change the minute you are saved. Ask God and mean it, when you ask. If you lack faith ask Him to give it to you as you pray. I don't know about others, but I felt it, when I got saved. Felt like a lump had come into my heart and my heart felt lighter. That was about 32 years ago. I was forty. I have never wanted to go back to the first forty.
No one can help you, accept yourself. Accept Chri... (
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I thought I was saved six years ago, I thought I felt something then, I thought I knew.
I felt the same thing, but it faded because I was only talking to myself.
for me, there is only hope in the place where my faith was, because god was nowhere to be found.
I curled my lips at your second sentence because there is resentment in me for such things.
where was god when Christian died? he had stronger faith then me. where was god when my dog was having a 3 hour seizure and I was alone crying, holding him in a dark house pleading to him to stop this dog's pain one way or another?
where was god when I needed guidance in my life, I needed support.
where is god now, when I am trying to pick myself up, stumbling and falling, when I have been waiting for him for two years to give me back my strength and got nothing but silence? sometimes quiet is violent.
If god exists, if, then there is something seriously wrong with either me or him, one of us is insane.
I have hope that there is a god, because I have an understanding of the fact that god is something that cannot simply be measured.
that is the only thing, besides the basic principles that I agree with in Christianity, that keeps me questioning, and not turning into the atheist as you described it.
but faith is non sequitur for me now, I need facts, although I understand assumptions and faith is a big part of science as well, it is not something that I need to tie a thick mental rope around to accept.
my mental rope broke because I saw nothing where someone led me to believe there was something tangible. tangible is all I deal with now other than thoughts of hope.
at this point I need to see it to believe it.
because what I have been seeing in my life is not what I read in the bible.
but again, we will see one day, if I meet the lord, I can only hope he would have mercy on me, for I was lost.