Keep Asking Questions...
The Important Thing Is Not To Stop Questioning. ---- Albert Einstein
We used to think we knew it all. We had grandiose ideas about ourselves & our world. So we stopped asking ourselves the hard questions that would cause our fragile world of make-believe and deviousness to come crashing down around us. We protected our addiction by fleeing from the questions ( & their answers ) that could have started us on a new road ..... the one to recovery.
Then, one day, the questions started, ..... they flooded in unchecked. Why am I out of control? How come I can't look my loved ones in the eye? Why don't I have time for my real friends? Why do I get so easily irritated with others? Why do I feel so bad about myself, so filled with guilt & shame? Why can't I cope with life? Why is my life one problem after another ..... to the point of unmanageable?
Unmanageable? When we feel this question deeply, then we are already turning towards the road to recovery, for we know we can't continue to go it alone. Our way simply does not work !! The questions suggest their own answer : we need others, a different system of friends & support, a program of life, a Higher Power, peace of mind, serenity, love & happiness.
These are what we really wanted and needed, what we thought we would find in our addiction. After a period of time, we find that this is not so. However, this is indeed what we find in our Twelve Step program ..... if we if fact do the work required of us, ..... to the best of our ability. But first, we must get fully honest with our innermost self.
Learning to be honest with ourselves means continuing to ask tough questions about ourselves, our situations, & our world.
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