rumitoid

Although I know most here think that I am perfect (wink), sorry, but it is not true. Reviewing my entire 70 years of life is often embarrassing: how could I be so unconscious? Unlike Frank Sinatra, my regrets are not "to few to mention."

My prostate cancer I feel is a product of my lust fullness that pretty much controlled me for decades. It seemed normal and natural for most of my life, just being a virile male. I was wrong; it caused a lot of hurt.

My heart disease I feel is being too much in my head since I was very young, thoughts and ideals, things to ponder and discuss, often more important than relationships. I rarely put the heart first...and it fell out of use. So many times I wasn't generous when it would been easy to do so. This was a betrayal of humanity, as well as myself and those close to me.

My COPD was simple to analyze: 45 years of smoking. There was a time in my life where I smoked three packs a day, and I once was a very competitive long distance runner, an insult to a gift from God.

So here I am left in retirement to idle away the hours about everything that could have been and those that should not have happen. Today, I have to force my mind to stop contemplating this stuff, though I feel a bit guilty when I do because it seems like I am running away, trying to escape the justice that I know I deserve. I met Joe Black. Prayer has become a bigger part of my life.

Liberty Tree

Then why do you feel you are the one most qualified to pass judgment on others as to whether or not they are a good Christian.

SWMBO

Probably because he honestly believes that by pointing out the failings of others he can remind himself that no human being is perfect that he is not alone as a failed person. Let me assure him that we are all failed and that only by Gods grace can we be made whole. Unfortunately his way of doing that is not usually the way that works with other people, as it tends to alienate most people.

NPP

rumitoid

I don't. We are all sinners, remember. Do you have opinions on that issue? Lol, and all that while passing judgment on me. Very funny.

(No points for bearing my soul, being honest? Okay. But you should try it.)

Liberty Tree

You do and it is confirmed by some of your posts.

rumitoid

Egads.

lpnmajor Loc: Arkansas

It's a wonder that any of us are still alive, considering the chemical soup we live in. The air is poisoned, the land, water and food expose to us to 1000's of unregulated and untested chemicals.